Melancholia
Looking out onto the trees, I'm overwhelmed by their profound sadness. I believe that their wisdom, rising as it does from the earth, knows more than I know. Sadness reminds me that I still love and that I still care. We have all been hurt, and as a consequence made ourselves into pseudo-Stoics, believing in our pretense, the pretense that we do not care. Resolved to be with that illusion -- that familiar nonchalance, that strange, violent numbness necessary in the face of what seems impossible to bear -- we unleash our anger. Rage. Vitriol. The "government." The ineptness of "others." The conspiracy that justifies the "police state." Frankly, I'm not here to pass judgment. I am here to witness the frailty of those sinews that link bone to flesh. When we are in good health, we are eternal. When the stock market is on the rise, we are secure. When my lover smiles, we are in love. Until we aren't. We find ourselves exposed, w